She left the planet two weeks ago on the 4th day of September, 2012. She did not have the strenght to last the entire summer of her last year. My pain is only eased by the forth bottle of Jack Daniels in the six pack I bought during my last trip to California. Funny that I should think of the money I saved buying a case of JD while in California at a time like this.
But that is what Caroyn and I did during our time together. We saved for our future. People, if there is anything I can offer to you in the form of advice, it is to spend your dollars now. Spend them now while you can enjoy the company of your mate. Do not take the advise of all the sages who insist that you save them by putting them 401K's and the hands of thieves.
Spend your dollars while you can; enjoy the company of your most beloved. I sit here alone with a pile of dollars. And, I sit here alone, with no one with whom I wish to share them. How much better it could have been to watch Carolyn twirl in Ireland just one more time. How much better to have watched as she danced to the Irish piper of her heritage. I would rather have eaten from dumpsters in my old age than to have wound up in my present state. Awash in dollar bills and knowing that Carolyn would have loved to have seen County Cork just one more time.
I live in grief.
